HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!!!! :) now you're 18. :) and i love you. not coz you're 18. not coz there's anything you can give me. not coz you amuse me. i just love you. for everything you are, and everything you're not, and everything you've had to go thru and everything you will have to go thru.. just hold my hand and let me walk through with you ok? i'm not letting you down and i'm not letting you go. i love you. and i want to be with you for always and always. don't let time be an obstacle. yes, many things pass away. but some don't. i will love you in eternity and i'd like you to be with me thru it. i love your soul. i love you.

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heh.. see shawn? i knew it was gonna be this way... :) *hug*

Which dog breed are you?

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and you ppl can still tag.. i'll gladly tag away.. :) tag okay? TAG! I SAY!! DAMMIT... (hehehe.. )

Who's Your Btvs Match?

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personally i think this is pretty random but okay...

Silent


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umm... bitten. yea.

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umm.. bubble tea?!?!?!

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mm. hmm.

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=) happy sunflower..

i don't feel much like sayin anything.. on a sort of hiatus for a while..

won't last long.. :)

i'm such an amazing flake.. man.. my last post is just..... *speechless*

"heh.. i kinda always liked oz tho.. sho adorable.. of course, in reality, i have the best of both worlds.. ;p awesome! hey come to think of it, i think spike's pretty awesome.. he's so delish! and he's got such spunk.. yummy! ;p i'll just put their pics up.. ahha.."

.........

freak.. i'm so darn exhausted i could cry..

and my thumb is all scratched from peeling like twenty over hard boiled eggs............... urgh.....

and my head is like spinning... and my nose is running.. and yes i know i'm whining really annoyingly.. urgh.

ok. now to the quizzes..

oh wait. special mention to my sweetie for bein so cool.. he posted a whole entry on me! haha.. ok i'm not egoistic.. just touched.. ;p

ok.. now to the quizzes..

Who's Your Btvs/Angel Sweetheart?

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heh.. i kinda always liked oz tho.. sho adorable.. of course, in reality, i have the best of both worlds.. ;p awesome! hey come to think of it, i think spike's pretty awesome.. he's so delish! and he's got such spunk.. yummy! ;p i'll just put their pics up.. ahha..

Who's Your Btvs/Angel Sweetheart?

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Who's Your Btvs/Angel Sweetheart?

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What month should you have been born in?

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hmm.. wat's up with this.. it fits me pretty well tho.. but look at december(which is the month i'm really born in)! that's me too! soo..... ummm...

What month should you have been born in?

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umm.. ok i think that's all.. i'm so tired.. achin like crazy man.. if i did go for rehearsal i'd be dead anyway which isn't fair.. and yes.. my head really is feelin like.. weird.. *groan* think i'm havin slight gastric pangs but i'm so exhausted i can't eat.. well.. don't feel much like it anyway..

...........

NOBODY TOUCHES MY THINGS!

BASTARDS!

FUCKING HELL...

AND THAT MEANS N O B O D Y!!!!!

:p thanx sweetie..

however... there are some people, in life, which you will not have a say over whether to "kill" the person..

some people, you encounter and are faced with in life, you have no way of escaping. no morally right way, anyway. it is these people which force you to make a decision about your own life. about whether you will succumb and integrate, and very likely in the process compromise your own incipient values and thus short-changing yourself, depriving your own being from a character worth respect; or whether you will fight and refuse to let your spirit be defeated.

therefore, without all these people which leave you only the options either to fight against conforming or become the very thing you hate, you (or i for that matter) would not be the persons we are..

cherish not what you hate, but see it in a different light.. only obstacles have the power to reveal your true inner potential, without them, you would never need to summon what lies within to try to overcome.

it still sucks to have horrid, annoying people in your life..

;p haha... love ya all!

urgh......... there are some people i just cannot endure..

gah! urgh.

today was cool coz shawn came over.. :)

bleah. and i'm bored. and tired. and i think i may just go to sleep. or chill out on my bed and read. or maybe i'll go stone in front of the tv.

urgh.. such a drag......

You are the good ol' classic sunset. Romantical
and serene, you're genuine nature will
guarentee you an incredible amount of pain in
this life as you realize how many phony
hypocrites are out there. Sooner or later
you'll decide to stop hating them and start
helping them. Don't expect anything, give your
love without abandon and you will reap
countless rewards.

You are not greedy. Thank you for your flexibility
and willingness to compromise. Yeah you can be
stubborn, but for the most part, you're willing
to hang loose.

Know this...that no matter what, you are loved.


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okiez.. i am happiez.. pretty sunset.... :)

You are "Innocent."
You understand that there's more to this world than
darkness... At least, as far as you know, there
is. Many people disagree with that. Ah well,
keep it up, and go help Johnny play his guitar.


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hmm.. yea i decided to plug in my earfones and listen to some vertical horizon... :) awesome stuff.. so..... hmmm..... i'm ummm... pondering... yea........... and "hi dawn!" *waves* you draw really pretty!!!!! have fun at home yea? :) random posts.. i miss jus and char!!! i hope they miss me too.. hahahaha.. what a weirdly shameless statement. *hugz*

ok.. hey hey peepz.. i'm just bored and havin nothin to do.. shawn just went for class so yea.. i'm in the com labs.. typing this out..for lack of anything to do..

anyway, my interview was this morning.. it was a little creepy.. nah. scary-ish.. well.. something like that.. yea.. sure hope i'm in.. yep.. God lead.. :)

so.. i was just thinkin how it's a weird and creepy-ish concept.. having people read your blog.. random people who maybe clicked on your link for fun, random people who know you and don't leave a tag.. random people who are checkin up on you for some reason or other.. it's like.. in a personal blog where only your closer friends are properly authorised to enter and view and comment and everything, in this present internet age (which also makes blogging possible) where anyone can access anything you put up on the internet, there isn't actually any real privacy or any way to prevent anyone "lookin in on you"..how do you know that your information is safe? you don't. and that's a risk you take. if you've nothing to hide, good. if not, well.. maybe it should remain undisclosed, at least on the world wide web, or encrypted in whatever "code" is understandable only by you and the authorised..

hmm.. random musings.. =) leave me alone with a blank screen just waiting and begging to be filled, and this is the result.. heh....

>avril lavigne - i'm with you<

so....... my interview is at 10:30 am tomorrow morning.. hmm.. i kinda feel like freakin out (as in, for some weird reason i want to be freakin out.. probably coz it's the normal thing to do? haha....) yet i feel kinda calm and hoping that it'll be over.. yea.. i've got God on my side.. so i'm happy. yea.. guess that's also why i don't feel so damn scared.

but then again.. it could just be a case of freakin out only at the last minute or during the thing itself.. which i commonly do.. hahahaha.. yea man.. =p nuts.. hai...

so anyway.. i was hangin out at shawn's place today.. :) yep.. he had to go to school for a while tho.. so i was just playin freecell and spider solitaire hehe.. random.. yea.. and dawn was down with tha flu so she gets to stay at home til wednesday.. hahah.. back to school with tha primary school kids gal.. ;p (btw, dawn is shawn's sister.. for the uninformed.. heh..)

yea.. so anyway.. i dunno.. ARGH!! what the heck did i just type?! such retarded bimbotism! "yea.. so anyway.. i dunno"?!?!?!!?!? EEKS!!!! i think it's a sign that i should shut up til i have more stuff to say. ugh! bye!

digest this.

>evanescence - bring me to life<

blindness is a bliss when you can see through the walls. for true blindness is not seeing what is and can be when focus is warped. there is only one truth and this cannot be changed. but everything else is a fact. which is never eternal. in cryptics there may lie truth but only if one can see that truth and is at a level to understand it will he (or she, for that matter) be able to draw wisdom and learn from it. life is a long road of learning. intemporal and very, very fragile. the best part of life is its journey (nevermind that it is more or less the only part), few can appreciate it. and a time will come when we must make our final appearance. the curtain call of life. but it is not the end.....

hai.... this is sooooo... annoying... hai..... my mind is just.... UGH! terrible!!

thank *you* so much for just bein so amazingly wonderful... i can barely believe it's real.. how you do it i have no idea.. i am however very very very thankful. extremely. really. believe me.... :) you're wonderful.

hmm.. realised it's been a few days since i've left any record of the passing of my days.. i finally get the chance to get online with some time to spare.. so here i am.. :)

yesterday, i got to sit in the middle of a crossroad and it was interesting. :) *hug* and it was very sweet that i got company throughout the night.. thanks.. :)

and umm.. it was also a bit of a creepy-ish day.. the amazing umm... "evil" the people i'm closest to are capable of.. err... scary. yeah. yeah. that's all.

mel has a site that rox.. yay! my mellie!!! <-- check it out..

water is good.

i like land stuff.

my blog's silent...

=) *hug*

uummm... sigh...

heretic (n): Theol. one who holds religious opinions contrary to the doctrines of his church. A dissenter from accepted beliefs or dogma of any kind.

felt quite neglected yesterday

hi andrew.. wong.. how have you been? wat's up and how'd u get here? *smile*

argh!!!! sigh.. my life is so........... interesting.

i'm not sad. just... pensive.

YEA!! ok.. i'm off now.. gonna chill out and read or something.. check out the links to tha right. :) yea....... *happy* ok. have a blesséd blesséd day.. god bless.. and i love my baby.. ;p yea. all of u too.. (that was not an after-thought!)

argh! so bored!!! crazy man!! i'm gonna like go play worms or sthg.. the game! not the creepy crawly! *mumble mumble*

whoa! the bring me to life video is pretty cool.. by evanescence.. :)

ugghh!!! the absolute boredom of a saturday stuck at home.. UNBELIEVABLE!

>ronan keating - when you say nothing at all<

it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying a word, you can light up the dark
try as i may i can never explain
what i hear when you don't say a thing

the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes sayin you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever i fall
you say it best when you say nothing at all

all day long i can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near you can drown out the crowd
try as they may they can never define
what's been said between your heart and mine

(chorus)

:)

Which Sylvia Plath Poem Am I?

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hey char! same result as you!!!! :)

:) quiz:

My sphere is Soldier (Unity in Strength and Action), and my class is Defender (Peaceful, yet Potent).

I am a Shield Bearer.

To be a Shield Bearer is to have great faith in your friends. Though your friends may not turn to you for guidance, they will turn to you when they need something more important... when they need somebody to stick up for them, especially in situations when they might feel vulnerable. You are very much valued by your comrades.

What kind of Warrior are you?

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My sphere is Guardian (Person of great Love and Altruism), and my class is Defender (Peaceful, yet Potent).

I am a Warden.

To be a Warden is to be the ultimate Guardian. Whether a physical Guardian or an essential Guardian, is up to you. You may be both. To be a physical Guardian is to be a living, breathing testament to the love you carry for a person, or people, whose lives you will always defend if you possibly can. To be an essential Guardian is to be a living, breathing testament to the security that your wards seek, and will look to you for your always kind, always nurturing support.

What kind of Warrior are you?

heh.. din like tha otha pic.. but tha wolf is pretty..

okiez.. heh. yes.. i was not mentioned much in char's description of tha "rehearsal" tha nite before.. yea coz i basically sat it out and watched them like practically the whole time.. i was.. well... exhausted.

it was loads of fun however, and even for me, just watching.. :) i, however, suck at improv. and would have been worse yesterday. i woulda just gone up there and like totally stoned out or sthg.. nope. not good. heh....

and char's such a sweetie. i just have to give her credit.. [i don't know if you could sense it, i think you did tho, but the pressure was beginning to get to me.. and yea.. your presence was very comforting. :) thank you. just for being there. nevermind that you had to be there anyway.. *hug*]

okie.. think that's all i have for now.. and if joel ever ever reads this.. sigh... you're such a prick.. not that i hold that against you.. but.... *sigh*

okie.. bye ppl...

yay yay yay!!!! i din pass chicken pox to my baby!!! i was so afraid man.. like shite! heh.. but all's cool.. thank god! i was feelin so so bad about it..... :) *hugz* h a p p y ! ! ! *jumpjumpjumpjump* :p

>leann rimes - but i do love you<

I don't like to be alone at night
And I don't like to hear I'm wrong when I'm right
And I don't like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you
But I do love you

I don't like to see the sky painted grey
And I don't like when, nothin's goin my way
And I don't like to be the one with the blues
But I do love you
But I do love you

I love everything about the way your lovin me
The way you lay your head upon my shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do, oh I do-o

And I don't like to turn the radio on
Just to find I missed my favorite song
And I don't like to be the last with the news
But I do love you
But I do love you

I love everything about the way your lovin me
The way you lay your head upon my shoulder when you sleep
And I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do, oh I do

And I don't like to be alone at night
And I don't like to hear I'm wrong when I'm right
And I don't like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you
But I do love you
But I do love you
But I do love you

:) *hugz*

ooh yea.. i gotta call back soon.. np.. the hotline.. to find out more bout tha interview.. eeee! *nervousness* helpz! =/

ok... it's been some time since i actually updated.. :) just haven't gotten around to sayin anything.. hmm.. i dunno... heh... it's been one week? hmm.. yes..

well, anyway, last wednesday i watched The Hours and it was a pretty good film actually.. lotsa pretty symbolism and the camera work was cool.. generally the day was lotsa fun.. yea......... ;p heh..

aha! then there was thursday.. the nite i went for rehearsals and erm.. foolishly followed justin around instead of just takin a train and ended up with a whole length to walk... ehem.. yes. that's all i'll say and for those who know, shut up about it yea? ahhahaha.. man! highways.....

yea... then friday rehearsal was cancelled!!! cool.. so i gotta hang out with min, jay and shawn for the rest of the evening instead of having to run off... yea.. friday was cool. :)

see i'm just like updatin lil bits.. so totally weird.... by the way, ever noticed how with the word "weird", the "i before e except after c" rule doesn't apply? hmmm....... *random musings*

saturday was just work then rehearsals. and a safe train ride home.. heh.. then sunday..... rehearsals without cheng coz she wasn't feelin well, then off to meet min and jay except they took forever gettin to suntec and char was hanging around with me for a while before she had to run off to YMCA for a meeting.. thanx fer keepin me company? :) way cool sermon but i was majorly tired... and i actually zonked off a bit.. ;)

monday.. that would be yesterday.. :) had lunch at al ameen's with a certain pony fan.. hehe.. *hugz* then we went to school (that's np by the way) and i juz hung out in the library and read and listened to the "in-house" classical music, then off to town.. :)

well well... so today i'm goin down to the substation to help out a bit with the props and stuff.. yea heading down in a bit... hmmmm one more person added to the list of SARS deaths.. makin a total count of 4 so far.. hmmmm.... so anyway, all of ya who read this, take good care and god bless and watch over you.. *hugz*

pure


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hehe... *angelic grin* i love the pic. its so cute! :)