hmm.. sigh..

with all these absolutely brilliant, talented people around me, i feel like i'm the least. i feel so utterly talentless and giftless and.. useless. what is it i do well? what is it i can say that i excel in, that makes me stand out from all these immensely, terrifyingly amazing people? does a lack of ability to do anything count? does that make for an attribute? but how do i fit in the picture then? it is so depressing. highly highly depressing. musicians, writers, speakers, artists, all these i am surrounded by and what am i?

the fool may be the one who sees all, but he is not his own. Seeing needs a vision to perceive. that vision surrounds but does not belong to him, and his life is bound to that which he observes; without which, he will fail to exist.

thanks Mel dear..

So Valentines has come and gone and it was alright. a good valentines day for both shawn and i, for once in a long time (some time anyway). But it was good. What with the movie marathon and the chillin at his place. Good. Just that. Good. and that is just a blessing. :)

i finally finished my sillly writ essay and it's like 225 words too long? haha.. i don't care anymore. i'm going to sleep.

Night world... i miss my baby... *drifts off*

sigh..

work work work.. all beginning with "w". writ, web and work. sigh..

moulin rouge is amazingly wonderful. in all aspects. *awe*

ARGH!!!!

i am presently dead. well.. dying. i am trying to write an essay that i do not believe i will be able to churn out by tonight. i'm only at my first paragraph and stuck there! i will probably just end deciding to screw the whole thing and go to sleep. it is, as has been pointed out to me by my very good friend jeremy, probably not going to be marked. i might just sleep late and miss writ anyway.. argh. i am.. not so much very tired but my eyes are just closing on me.. all this squinting at the screen just makes it worse. i can't keep my eyes open. literally. not that i'm very very sleepy or anything. it is.. very.. weird. (i was thinking "distressing" but then decided it didn't fit. ) goodbye.

how could i forget!?

oh yea! i went to see love me if you dare and school of rock, with shawn, today! yay.. happy.. school of rock is just fun and rockin' and love is very interesting.. some of the techniques used, i like! heh. yep. ok i'm probably gonna go sleep now... night..

sigh...

well.. back to school tomorrow.. i really wish we had a break. i dunno. i know we've actually been havin quite a few holidays here and there but.. maybe that just makes it worse.. you get chill time then you get hit with school again.. argh.

well, writ is due this week. anything else? hmm.. someone remind me? night peeps..

FAB FEBRUARY!

yea well.. attempt at a lame title. ahha.. but yay anyway! i dunno why i'm so happy about it being february. never have been, ever. but "yay!" anyway. ha!

i must say the year has been good so far. of course it's only been one month, but hey! i'm already excited that this february... IS A LEAP YEAR! well, a leap-year february anyway. this YEAR is a leap year. ok.

so yep yep. i am happy-like. yesterday after goin back to school at NINE in the morning, for a darn social psych. test, i sat thru the lecture, reading and tuned in to rammstein (AMAZEMENT! haha..). but then i ran off after like half an hour of not paying attention. that is, for the first hour, i was still sorta there, but for the next half-an-hour after, i was totally somewhere else (mentally), and so i decided to make it physical too. that means, i ran off. yes, left the class. by the back door. haha.. it was quite amusing sitting behind, watching people crawl out of the lecture, afraid of being seen, when honestly, that far back, the lecturer wouldn't be able to see them anyway. and we had a round of truth or dare, and this funny-ass coordination game that yadin, taufiq and i were playing for a while.. haha.. it was fun yesterday. and i mean the whole day.

after i ran off i went to shawn's. and we chilled out for a while. had some lunch that i carefully picked thru, tryin to avoid all the porky bits and then watching shawn and his mum like sift thru like some huge crabs. i don't really eat crabs.

so yea more chilling after, then we headed off to city hall for his meeting. i sat in a corner reading and listening to.. yes, you guessed it, RAMMSTEIN! horrors. i've been brainwashed! haha. yea so anyway, they were eating ice cream. that's like their umm.. project. the research part. yuck. imagine eating tons and tons of ice-cream for research. even if you loved ice-cream, you'd probably never wanna touch it again for like at least five years or something? gorging on ice-cream for the sake of work is just. BLEAH.

so then, after his meeting ended, that was probably five plus? chingay thing getting into swing. people disappering into the crowded streets which we dutifully AVOIDED like the plague! THANK GOD! so yes. we decided on Marina Square after meeting nigel and daryl and shahin. so they went bowling while i watched (had no socks), which was another hilarious affair, followed by a few hours (so it turned out.. 2 hours maybe?) at the adjacent arcade- another very very funny couple of hours. :p

so yea! i had a good day! we ended off going back to raffles city shopping centre for the soup spoon! more fun.. la la la.. and then we all went home. still avoiding orchard road. yep. we all got a lift from daryl (or his mum rather), well, save for nigel who lives around town. so yep. back home.

and i realise i took up a heck load of space describing my whole day here. hmm.. well, now i've not much left to say. how retarded. ok. but that's fine. i'm sorta going into self-speech. uh.. ok. now, i will stop typing! who know's what i'm gonna be doing today.. and thank god tomorrow is a holiday! ok stop. bye.