oh yea.. and i watched the animatrix like um... on monday.. yea.. it was really like......

wow.

yea. that's all i can say. very jolting. and the animation is like.. can i say, brilliant?

man.. singaporeans are just plain stupid. yeesh. what the heck is up with this insane population of people? (that said, i'm sorry to whoever may be offended or whatever, but i don't much consider myself as a real singaporean; however i also do not see myself belonging anywhere on this earth so, it should not be too insulting. i just don't see myself belonging.)

so anyway,if you were wondering about what i was saying, it's the recent effect of SARS on our precious strays. animals, that is. yes, i visited charlene's link and i am so insulted by the implications of the statements of those government officials. blah blah blah.. 'oh the culling (in other words, MURDER ) of strays (supposedly ALL, a.k.a. dogs, rats, vermin, etc. not just cats )is NOT due to the recent SARS scare'.

yea yea.. can you say "B U L L S H I T ! ! ! ! !"?? bastards. and they think we're stupid or something? HELLO?! it's so blatant! so, all of a sudden, the stray issue is in the news, and they're killin animals, ONCE AGAIN, but it has absolutely nothing to do with the stupid SARS thing going on?! ha ha ha. ridiculous, the government we have.. they give us "education" and expect us to remain stupid.. and they base the education system on meritocracy and then before the children can fully develop, or maybe even begin to, they consign them to "streams" that chain their entire future (except, of course, the few that are bold enough to break out and reach for something higher and achieve beyond what they have so cruelly been restricted and judged to be able to do; and i honestly, have respect for these people). and the really smart people either leave, or join the government in continuing the brainwash and control of its "people" (for, honestly, what else really pays much better, where we live, while providing a certain amount of recognition?)

sigh.. what is up with this ridiculous place we live in? . . . . . . . signing out

ahh.... so maybe today i'll finally get to watch the animatrix. :)

and what do you mean by "great" nik? umm.. what's the scale like? ah! compare it to the mrs de souza one! help me out! haha..

it's been some time since i've updated this.. haven't really had much to say.....

however.......

after that long hiatus, i think i have confirmation that the supposed low crime rate in singapore is due, to no part, the police force (or maybe its restricted to the general low level police only, or is that too much to hope for?) in singapore. all "praise" must be attributed to the widespread success of the government's brainwashing and the unbelievable stupidity of the inhabitants (in general).

besides that, the police are also liars and abusers of their power and do not know or uphold the very law they are supposed to keep. they violate the very justice they are sworn to uphold and they will nevermore be seen by me in the same eyes (not to say that i was ever really in "awe" of them anyway, but at least they were still "decent human beings, normal and such") and they can nevermore elicit from me any respect. liars in blue. that's what they are.

and i guess that's all that i have to rant about now.

don't ask me for i am not inclined to reveal. but you can take it from me. if you will.

BLUE
Your vorpal sword is sparkling blue, shiny,
probably cold and hard as ice. Your sword
reflects the loyalty of your soul. You
probably use it to defend those you care about
just as much as you use it for self-defense.


What Color is Your Vorpal Sword?
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umm... hmph.

You are cutting


What Self-Mutilation Are You?
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hmm... *ponders*

You are heterosexual.


What is your sexual orientation?
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wonder why i even took this? hmm..

cool.. so today i finally get to chill out with geri again! at the airport!!! ARH!!! just thinkin of it brings back all these terribly fond memories.. of goin down to coffee bean with books in hand, sittin around drinkin water and doin math (AUGH!! ) haha.. and loads of the eminem show blasting.. bagels, and chillin over at her place, watchin dark city and life is beautiful and lots and lots of southpark! hahaha.. and i remember frosties, and milo, and prata late at night, and trips to the beach (ok, so maybe it was only like once or twice.. ) wow.. all these memories come flooding back!! i miss hangin out with her so!!!!! and of course, we musn't forget the many many many trips down to cold storage at the airport, and planning our grad.night wear, and doodling random shite and her planning her story like and comfy chairs, and dylan invading, and then this just leads to like... argh!!! so many things!!! like joel and his chicken.. haha.. and then back to Plasticiens Volant!!!!! ARGH!!!! crap crap crap!!! all these incredible memories!!! all the wonderful wonderful times! depression, prozac, magazine quizzes, ebay, more frosties, transit from her place to the 'port and vice versa, sophies world, somemore eminem, dark curtained room which emerging from blinds the eyes (haha... comfy!!), swimming, more books (econs for me and history for geri) and like... wow!!!! man.. i miss all of that!!!!!!! viewing gallery and just sitting there singing and enjoying the acoustics, tromping around Spotlight checkin out cloth, church attending, more of the airport, lots of talks, just chillin and makin fools of each other and ourselves, lots of bathroom trips. haha.. how in the world did we manage to wean ourselves away from all of that?! argh!!! so many memories!! and potato salads!!! and junk food and W.H. Smith and ARGH!!!!! geraldyne wee yu-ling!!! i miss you!!!!!!! haha.. i don't think she reads this.. start reading it man! haha.. *hug*

so basically i was gonna start by saying the rehearsal yesterday was good and productive and remained probably one of our shortest too!! it was pretty good, if i do say so myself.... which is rare.. the rehearsal bein good.. :) haha.. and it was fun too! see, now if i just began the post with this like i planned....... argh... i miss her so much.. i'm so glad i get to see her again today!!!! ok, so i saw her yesterday and for many rehearsals too but we haven't "just hung out" for like a really long time.... :( okiez.. i'm gonna go shower now and make my way down to the airport real soon... :) ta ta! signing out.....

ARGH!!!! so damn irritating! stupid forms.

it's weird.. like there's so much more to say when i'm pensive _or_ depressive _or_ miserable..

ok.. maybe it's also coz i'm so tired and busy nowadays? heh. :) i'm also quite happy.. ok. now i'm just feelin more or less..... content-ish? something like that.. not much .. maybe i'm just stoning..

so.. how is everybody? i'm on icq now, except, i'm regularly on invis so yea.. ha. privacy. good. good.

anyway, the only other person online is andrew.. wong.. yep.. so we're talkin a bit.. and i got thinkin.. it's sad how some of these friendships are like so umm.. deteriorated now.. like with aaron too.. but that really isn't my fault. it was always unbalanced.. and sometimes in life, that's just how it is.. nevermind. don't feel like goin into detail. heh. but some people will understand.. very few.. the people who know what i'm sayin and what i mean.. =)

ok.. nevermind that last bit.. rambling.. it's kinda nice.. chattin again.. :) umm.. more rambling.. i miss shawn.... beautiful sweet punk.. haha.. does anyone else see the irony in that description? haha..

speakin of punks, there was this cool punk/goth lady who came by to get some stuff today.. a customer. at my workplace. yep. and i thought she looked so lovely. beautiful. not like in the conventional sense, she's caucasian and she's like tall and big-boned-ish and she had black liner on her eyes and short, short hair.. almost spiked. heh. but not. i don't know how you describe this. but i think she was beautiful coz she was so real. she was like exuding real-ty. yea.. and i think she looked wonderful anyway (she was quite good-looking in the conventional sense too yet not). argh. forget it.. screw ya all.. i'm not describing anymore. she was just beautiful. and she wasn't emanciated. yea. she was beautiful. beautiful. *admiration*

so.. i spoke a lot on that.. and i am in a relatively pensive mood.. yep. and i feel nice and unbothered. and i'm playing an acoustic version of incubus' i miss you it's lovely... and suits my mood. a nice soft tune in the background.. with lovely lyrics.. very nice. and i love *you* and i do miss you.

"a three-fold utopian dream". *slight smile*

WHOA!!!! like finally one day where i don't have work!! ARGH! but then it's coz i've rehearsals. how horrible is that? (not the rehearsals!.. coz i've got other stuff on.. pah.) so i still don't have a free day!!!!! sigh.. i'm so damn tired.... ugh... and i'm so thinkin of quitting........ URGH

*utter tiredness*

argh.

pah.

whoa.. ok i just had a pretty cool discussion. Yet, again theological in nature. On the tag-board of mel. not my mellie but the other one. =) *waves*

anyway, yes, i've gotten my matriculation package in the mail!!! YAY!!! *hopskipjump* La la la.. i'm officially entering ngee ann... and i'm gonna get to do what i want! yaY!!! and i'll get to see char and jus and shawn (and maybe min and jay.. year threes.. do ya get around alot? ahaha.. i love you!!) a lot more! and umm.. who else do i know.. tristan? umm... i'll eventually meet mel of course, and um.. um... um.... hehehe.........

finally becoming a ngee ann student. it's been two years "in the making". hahah... yea! GOD ROCKS! {ARGH!! i forgot neil! ahha.. sorry pal.. :)}

yes, and it seems i return.. :) i can't say for sure really.. i mean,i need to have things to say ya knoe.. don't like just randomly posting stuff.. hehe.. altho of course, in actual fact i do.. (look at all the quizzes!!) haha.. ok.. so like.. yea.......

tha silly shawn's studyin and like i'm so getting ignored over here... hai............ bleah.

and i'm gonna be so busy and dead tired coz of work this week.. ugh... *groan*

see ya, people!