it's weird.. like there's so much more to say when i'm pensive _or_ depressive _or_ miserable..

ok.. maybe it's also coz i'm so tired and busy nowadays? heh. :) i'm also quite happy.. ok. now i'm just feelin more or less..... content-ish? something like that.. not much .. maybe i'm just stoning..

so.. how is everybody? i'm on icq now, except, i'm regularly on invis so yea.. ha. privacy. good. good.

anyway, the only other person online is andrew.. wong.. yep.. so we're talkin a bit.. and i got thinkin.. it's sad how some of these friendships are like so umm.. deteriorated now.. like with aaron too.. but that really isn't my fault. it was always unbalanced.. and sometimes in life, that's just how it is.. nevermind. don't feel like goin into detail. heh. but some people will understand.. very few.. the people who know what i'm sayin and what i mean.. =)

ok.. nevermind that last bit.. rambling.. it's kinda nice.. chattin again.. :) umm.. more rambling.. i miss shawn.... beautiful sweet punk.. haha.. does anyone else see the irony in that description? haha..

speakin of punks, there was this cool punk/goth lady who came by to get some stuff today.. a customer. at my workplace. yep. and i thought she looked so lovely. beautiful. not like in the conventional sense, she's caucasian and she's like tall and big-boned-ish and she had black liner on her eyes and short, short hair.. almost spiked. heh. but not. i don't know how you describe this. but i think she was beautiful coz she was so real. she was like exuding real-ty. yea.. and i think she looked wonderful anyway (she was quite good-looking in the conventional sense too yet not). argh. forget it.. screw ya all.. i'm not describing anymore. she was just beautiful. and she wasn't emanciated. yea. she was beautiful. beautiful. *admiration*

so.. i spoke a lot on that.. and i am in a relatively pensive mood.. yep. and i feel nice and unbothered. and i'm playing an acoustic version of incubus' i miss you it's lovely... and suits my mood. a nice soft tune in the background.. with lovely lyrics.. very nice. and i love *you* and i do miss you.

"a three-fold utopian dream". *slight smile*